Aleox's Ramblings

Update

Sun, 09 Sep 2007 20:12:08 GMT

Thought I'd post a quick update of whats been happening with me. I feel a bit guilty that I hardly update this place anymore, because I read other peoples entries nearly everyday and find it really interesting! I suppose that must make me sound a bit freaky but never mind! Firstly I've started back at uni this week. The second year sounds like its going to be really interesting but REALLY hard work! The lectures I've had have been really good, it just seems like its going to be a lot of work and a lot more pressure to do well in placements. I still cannot see myself being a nurse in 2 years time, it feels really scary! The house is going ok. Admitedly it is bloody hard work living with 9 people. Some of them are harder than others!! It's just at times like being in high school with all the whispering and whatnot. 80% of the time its fine, but when I'm having a bad day and my head is being a paranoid mess it can be tough. I just try and remember the people there who I really get on with and concentrate on them and try and forget about the people that do my head in/make me feel a bit shitty. Saying that I've had some really fun nights out over the last week so maybe I'm just moaning a bit! In other news I've not smoked now for over 2 months. I'm pretty impressed with that feat! I never thought I'd be able to do it, yet it wasn't actually as hard as I imagined. If only losing weight could be so easy! I still feel insecure and fed up with my body, but maybe that's just part of being a woman (Bleh). I'm trying to get back into going to the gym again full time as over the summer I was COMPLETELY lazy and hardly went at all! Summer wise I didn't do much. I didn't go on holiday because of lack of money. Still, had an alright summer really. Had lots of day trips with uni friends and friends from home and Matt which was fun. On the Matt front it's been 2 years on the 27th which will be my longest realtionship to date. We have our ups and downs but the ups outweigh the downs by a million and I honestly cannot imagine life without him.
Right I think I've update enough now for at least 6 months! I really do mean to update more often with this place because it'd be cool if 10 years down the line I could look at this site and see what I'd written when I was a stressed out nursing student!
Finally a note to sexy_tink and Matt. Your both in my thoughts and prayers and I hope everything is ok

Mon, 09 Jul 2007 18:50:31 GMT

It's going really well (so far) I'm on the patches and so far I've not had any physical cravings. Just kinda habbit ones..like one after dinner etc etc. I'll keep updating on how I'm going!

Recently moved into my new house. It's 9 bedrooms and is an end terrace victorian house. My room is really nice, I've decorated it and made it mine :) The rest of the house is ok...not in the best condition as its student accomodation but its nice to have a room bigger than a box and some sofas to sit on! (even if they are skanky!!)
Plus I've finished and passed my first year! It's gone soooo fast! Can't believe I've done it tbh and still loving it as much as I do! All I've got to do is get my placement document signed off on Wednesday and I'm all done, it'll be a nice summer! Have got a little bit of work to do over the summer, but nothing too stressful! This month has been REEAALLY bad for money! What with the new house, bills and all that, I've been left with £3 for the next two weeks, eek!! Never mind! Once I get my bursary though things should be a little less stressful on that front! Anywho think thats all for now! I'll post a few pictures from the new house, sorry about sizing! I'm terrible with this kind of thing!

My room

My room at night

The hallway..sorry about the clothes drying!

The kitchen/living room

18 weeks...phew!

Tue, 12 Jun 2007 18:32:05 GMT

Wow 18 weeks since I updated...that is a loongg time!
I'll start with a few tickers to get things rolling!

Right, now that's done! As you can see I'm still surviving at uni. I'm on my 3rd placement, this time at a nursery. I LOVE my course to bits and I'm having a great time. There's been a few niggles along the way, but generally it's been a good time so far. I'm still with the lovely Matt. Everything there is still great. I can't think of much else to post really so I'll post a few piccys of the main things I can think of!

Went to see Justin, it was AMAZING!

Important people

Recent pic of me (ala toilet when pissed!-I wasn't actually ON the toilet at the time!)

Me all scrubbed up before I went into theatre!

The lovely Matt - being geeky on his pc, bless :)

Well apologises for the crappy update! I do read all your journals still and find them all really interesting etc. Lian congrats again on the baby :) x

Video I made

Fri, 02 Feb 2007 22:06:50 GMT

Made this last night. Possibly one of the best nights at uni I've ever had, it was just pure aceness :)

Watch it cos it'll make you chuckle. I'm the tit with lights draped round me at the beginning of the video!

Tis only 34 secs so it won't take long to download :) Enjoy mocking me tee hee

Lovin it ... stressing it

Sun, 15 Oct 2006 21:23:12 GMT

Still loving uni.
Been having some great nights out. Drunkeness and all that shizzle. Made lots of friends which is ace.
I've been keeping onto of my work as well, a first for me :) Today I even sat for a few hours and did some revision notes and some question cards as well. I'm stressing about my essay I've got though. It wants us to 'critically analysis' things and I don't understand how to put it into practise :( I'm gonna go visit the essay support people tomorrow and see if they can help because I'm getting into a big tiz about it. I did my essay and if I've done it all wrong I'm gonna get real pissed off... bleh. I bet I'll have to re do it. At least I've got over a week still to finish it. Anywho gonna make myself a cuppa and go to bed in a bit, woo :)

x

Wed, 20 Sep 2006 22:50:16 GMT

I thought I'd just post a quick update as I'm having a quiet night in at uni. Not been feeling too well lately, think its the Fresher's Flu!
Still having lots of fun though. I seriously need to stop eating so badly though as I'm turning into a massive heffa! Apart from that its all ok. Things are starting to settle down, people are finding there own pace etc. The course has been really interesting so far though. Quite a few early starts and late finishs though!
And I'm being a good girl and doing my work, but still partying pretty hard, hehe.

Started...

Sat, 09 Sep 2006 18:38:40 GMT

So I've FINALLY started uni :) Doing my nursing course in Birmingham, living away in a box and all that. I was soooo nervous about going (meeting people, making friends, living away, the course, placement etc) but I have to say, it's ace :) I haven't started lectures yet (but I'm itching too, sad I know!) But my housemates are LOVELY and we all get along really well :) There are 9 of us sharing a flat, we're mixed sex but all a lil older than the usual crowd (ranging from 20-25) but they are all such nice people and I've been having an ace week with them. Eaten, smoked and drank to the max though, eeek... will need to start seriously dieting etc soon! Will try and update this more while I'm away as I've got my laptop in my room with internet access, whoop. Spending the weekend chilling at home though and sleeping, hehe.

x

It's been a while...

Fri, 11 Aug 2006 18:13:38 GMT

Wow, I haven't updated here for YONKS! I've been reading all my friend's journals regularly though, and just thought I'd mention that even tho I don't comment much I still read with much interest!

Well, loads to write but I will keep it brief(ish) as I'm tired and stuff.
Errmmm... main thing really is I'm starting Uni in 3 weeks! I am soooooo excited. I really cannot wait to start the course and train to be a nurse and share a house and stuff. I'm so scared as well though! Now I'm starting to organize my stuff etc to take it just feels so soon, and I can't believe I'm moving out... eek!
Matt and I are still great :) Been nearly a year now and its gone so fast! I have to say that everyone was really dubious at first whether we'd last, even us a bit I think, lol. Cos we'd been mates etc. But it really is the best thing that's ever happened, it just feels so right :) Kinda feels like this might be the one, hehe.

(hope he's not reading this cos he'll get scared :P )

Errm, apart from that, everything is is fine. Not been doing that much cos I'm skint as hell, lol

God I haven't even updated since Florida! Eeek. Obv it was AMAZING and Matt being there was really really ace... miss it like hell though :) If you go to my myspace (hehe become a bit of a regular there) then you can see Florida etc pics as I update there.

It's aleox85 ... :)

Had a really great 21st as well, went to Wolverhampton with a big group of mates and went to an indie club. It was just a really good night out.... I have never been so wasted in my ENTIRE life though... blacked out and everything. ... oh and large chucks of memory are missing!

Went to Newquay as well for Dave's birthday... About 12 of us. Was a cool weekend... too much spliffage was consumed ... eek.

Anyway. I'll be off now. I'll try and update this more once I'm at uni as Matt brought my a shiny new laptop for my birthday, it's ace :)
x

Woot

Thu, 02 Mar 2006 14:46:41 GMT

Woot I went for my health assessment and passed! I was scared they might want to do loads of tests and stuff but they just wanted to talk about my depression and my accident and stuff. I'm well chuffed!

I think thats all the stuff for uni now - test wise. I think I've finally got in and stuff, yay!

It's nice that life (touch wood) is going good for me at the moment. Matt and I are great as well. I didn't think I'd ever find that kind of happiness with a bloke again but I have - and it's great.

So anyone out there who wants a boyfriend who is great and stuff - go out with your best mate cos it is ace!

I've lost another few pounds this week as well. I've been taking those adios tablets and they really work - 4lbs in 1 week! Its good because I won't look a complete whale when I'm in Florida!

Thu, 23 Feb 2006 19:35:47 GMT

God I'm bored.
I go to work. I come home. I see Matt.
Gah.

I've become a recluse. Because I haven't seen my friends for a few weeks, what with being ill and stuff. And I've got addicted to this game online called World Of Warcraft. It's great, but it makes me a TOTAL geek. Never mind. Matt and I are made for each other in the sense that we both love it .. haha.

But on that note things are great. Just thinking about him makes me smile.

Work fucks me off. Well not work, just this god damn girl who I just want to hit with a very large stick and then scream. I'm sure I'd like her if I just got that out the way.

I just have to find a large stick

A quick thing...

Tue, 14 Feb 2006 17:55:59 GMT

*Things that Rock*
Went to see Arctic Monkeys on Sunday in Cambridge, they were ace.
Florida in under 6 weeks.
Matt and I are all good
Been having an ace few weeks with friends and stuff.

*Things that suck*
I've had a tummy bug for 3 days now... so that's been VALENTINES day... puking and Arctic Monkeys puking. Kinda sucks ALOT... I want it to go away!
I didn't get a Valentines day card cos I'm ill :(
I have to save money for Florida.

Drop a jean size.

Wed, 01 Feb 2006 18:40:20 GMT

This is probably really sad and girly. But today Topshop made my day. I tried on a pair of size 12 jeans and they were too big! I was so chuffed. I haven't been a size 10 in jeans for about 2 years! I brought the 12's in the end though because I like them really baggy... but I can pull them down without undoing them, woohoo!

Brrrr it's been so so bloody cold today. I literally froze my tits off at work. Pah.
Can't wait for Florida sunshine :P

I got in!

Wed, 25 Jan 2006 21:18:02 GMT

I got into UCE in Birmingham to do nursing! Wohoo! My Mum and Dad were more excited than me bless them, it's kinda hard to sink in though at the moment! I've been given a unconditional offer and have to send away a police check and health check (worrying!?) and then it's all clear :)

The only confusing thing is whether I have to pay for my course because it's just hard to believe that the NHS pay for my fee's and on top of that I get £5,000 ... although according to UCE website and the people there I do. I just want to see it in writing, on my letter and stuff, then I'll be feeling ok again!
I forgot how confusing and stressful applying for uni is though - already I'm stressing about it all and I haven't even gone!

Lady pains

Mon, 23 Jan 2006 18:49:19 GMT

Tis that lady time of the month. I feel really poorly. My stomach ache's so much, urgh.

I feel really low today. Maybe it's just the PMT cos I don't have anything to feel low about. Except you know when your happy and things are going right and then something comes along and throws your head into turmoil. Well that's how I feel. It sucks.

Interview

Tue, 17 Jan 2006 12:39:31 GMT

Just came back from my university interview. It went well (I think) Just gotta wait 10 days now to see if I get in. eEEEKK.

I got my new glasses as well today. Hip hooray.

I'm also (again) back on my diet, but this time special k one.

Tis working so far.

No smoking going good - 3 fags in 17 days... hoozar.

Spotty... so going to doctors.

Bleh

Sun, 15 Jan 2006 16:33:43 GMT

Just came back from Sunday lunch at Matt's Mum's house. It was really nice.
Ack, the entry last night was drunken.

I feel pooey today. I dunno why but my skin is all spotty and it won't go away... again. It's been like this for MONTHS and it's doing my head in! It used to be fine but now its just crazy. Sometimes it's fine then all of a sudden BOOM it's bad again. I think I'm gonna stop drinking Slim Fast because it's only since then that my skin has been really bad.

I ate so much last night.. bleh. So I am officially fat AND spotty. All I need now is glasses and greasy hair and I'd officially be class geek.

Wow, how I love self loathing, haha.

Going to the pub quiz again tonight. Shud be fun. Think I'm gonna go and have a bath to try and cheer me up a lil.

Uni interview on Tuesday...eek!

Wine

Sat, 14 Jan 2006 22:50:34 GMT

Wine is eveil. Adter drinking 2 nnbottles of the stuff i cannot looks at the computer pro[er;y wothpit squinting., i cannot type and i am fucked as anything.

deary me yet another pissed entry, i must stop this indeerdy.

having a good nifht jusst grinkig at gome and with matt watching films.

I LOVE MATT LOTS AND LOTS.

I said this ebvcuase i kmw eh reads thiss and so i wnted tocht tell him that u konve love him. damn mh yyutypeing.

im goinnga have to occorrect this tomorrow,.
damn my fingers and not being able to ptype correctiyl.

indededy i am ghavppy and everything is good. going to see and bands and gioing oto floridass in a month and a bit. and just stipff uos ofcun. og yes.

ahrgh im onna go now cos i canttypwe cos im fucjed asd anything /// hwhy do i keep saying fcukied insteasdy of drunk.

i ate lots as we,l bad alex. i sam tryign to diew ant i lost 3 pouind this eeek but i was sbeas today andi atye lot.s damnut i cannt see cos of my contatcs nasdp issed enx. pl gpos

pok nosw i feel bad sory for this entry of psied nies/

Converse

Thu, 05 Jan 2006 23:31:07 GMT

Just come back from pub. A little drunk. How come I always update here when I'm intoxicated!

Looky at the photo...

All the con's! Yay for converse. Hehe. I took that tonight at the pub. Went to the Taphouse and saw a few bands with Dave and Lucy and Stevie P. Allan came along as well. Was a good night in all :) Fun all round.

I love friends. Yay. I feel good today. I went to the pub, and I smoked NONCE! Not one, except for a spiliffage. But no fags, go me. I'm proud. Also my diet is going well (ish). When I say that I mean I'm not scoffing everything in sight and gorging myself stupid.

Work is boring. Matt has left, boo hoo.

My Matt is lovely though. Oh how I love him.

I heard about 'bad matt' today. Someone mentioned seeing him, made me feel a lil weird, dunno why. I kinda just cope with it all by imagining him not real and not having girfriends and stuff. But still, twas weird. I texted him saying happy new year, so that no bygones were bygones and no evilness was there. I don't like having enemies. Plus it's my new moto to be nice. But he didn't reply. So I suppose thats his problem and his worry really.

I made up with my first EVER boyfriend. I saw him in the pub just before xmas and it was ace. We chatted and made up and said sorry for being 15 and cocks and stuff. It was lovely. I've always regretted not sorting stuff out with him, as he was the only ex who I was on bad terms with, and I think it's wrong to go out with someone and then be enemies. But Matt and I are still enemies so I suppose they'll always be an enemy ex out there for me to want to make up with.

I even made up with Elliot (who I didn't even go out with, but we ended up being kinda enemies), which is a feat in itself as I think our personalities clash WAAYYY to much but the net has made us a bit more friendly. I don't think we'll ever be best chums but it's nice that we get along now cos I felt a bit evil before.

Anywho I've rambled for way too long. Time to go me thinks.

x

New Year

Tue, 03 Jan 2006 19:04:50 GMT

New Year was ace.

My resoloutions are:
* Give up smoking
* Be Nice
* Keep my room tidy
* Get down to 9st

I think I can achieve all of these ... apart from the be nice one (when I'm drunk) cos I'm an evil drunk.

God I haven't updated for AGES. I had a really nice christmas and New Year though. Involved lots of drunkeness and stonedness and being couply... and erm... presents.

Hoozar.

Some photo-m-graphs to sum it all up anywho. I really should start updating here more often, maybe I should make that a new resolution as well...

My boo te ful tree.

Me and Batman at the xmas party

Xmas eve party at Dave's

New Years eve... wohoo.

A stoned update

Wed, 21 Dec 2005 23:21:20 GMT

Hello. I thought I'd update at Luca and Dave's house. Whoop indeed. I'm veryt stoned and bloody hell thois is hard to tpye proberly.

anywho. today i went to allsn fduneal rfor his dad. it was really sad and stuff and i vcried. im sad for him that his dad has died.

tis xmas soon, whoohoo indeed. so far this week. today i went to funral,m yesterdat u i went to sians and we got stone dand wtactrhed movie and then matt came \round in the night. on monday i worked then in thenighti wient to my chrismals o=work meal sand it wa s ACE . indeed lots `of dancing and ill udpate fptito photosa when im home.

on saturdsay i went to gonxods with allan and his twat friend and sian. i saw matt and vicky whilst i was there sand ut wssa ace. phew it takes so long to type that i have to stop now before my finhgers doie!

bye bye.

Sat, 10 Dec 2005 12:51:24 GMT

As you can see. I work hard at work, haha...

I went to see Little Britain last night. It was soooo good! I got this ace t shirt as well...

Updated photos...

Tue, 06 Dec 2005 19:51:16 GMT

Thought I'd start this update with some silly pictures. As I haven't put up any photos for ages...

Matt and I at the pub...

Sian and I dressed up for her 21st.

Allan doing his normal gormless look, lol.

Rob having a sing...

Me with 2 girls (who were lovely but I'd never met before) Incidently I made Allan take the photo as I thought it was amusing we were sat together as we've all slept with Allan!

Freaky armed Allan!

Anyway enough of the photo entries. Nothing much exciteable to update about. I went to see aha on Saturday with Rob. They were ACE with added aceness on top. We finished the evening off by getting caned. Enjoyable much round. My old phone's broke though so in a few days I'm gonna be getting this spangly new thing...

woohoo indeedy!

Work is boring ... Matt is fine ... I've been feeling real down the last few days. Just so fed up. 'Rents are CONSTANTLY on my back (you'd think they'd find more amusing ways to spend there time) and I'm still being 80% good on the smoking front (I have a fag every few days!) Kinds impressive for me as I feel spotty and down and stressed and just generally grumpy... pah!

Winter's here

Tue, 29 Nov 2005 18:24:07 GMT

Brrr it's so cold!
Things are still the same, no amazing news to update on. Clark's is fine, and almost bordering on being kinda fun (cos of the people). I've been doing ok on my no-smoking. Only had, 2 fags I think, and spliffs obvousily (I'm not giving that up!) but I'm really chuffed with myself. I only had those 2 fags cos my Mum was having a rant at me and I was stressing.

Matt and I are fine. We've been chilling out lots and going to the cinema (Harry Potter - ace, Flightplan - ok, The exorcism of Emily Rose - pants) and we went to laser quest on Sunday for my brother's birthday, it was so much fun! I think I might go there for my 21st!

I'm not doing very well on my diet, pah. I've put on a few pounds (9st 10lbs now) but I know I can lose it again if I really concentrate and stop being naughty (mainly because of party food!)

Oh, bad Matt (as in Matt-the-twat) decided to text me last week at 7 am and ... well, not really say much in particular. Mainly just trying to see if I'd fall for his old tricks I think. He said he felt bad for being a twat (well duh) and that he'd been thinking about me and 'us' and stuff. When I said there was no 'us' he started to get all defensive (I think he was suprised I wasn't falling at his feet) and then he had the nerve to call me 'babe' in a message. I politely informed him to shut it as it was patronising (and it was politely as well) but he got a strop on - started saying I was still the same as old times, still ranting at him etc. etc. His excuse for it was 'a slip of the tongue' (by text?!?) and then he oddly asked me if I wanted to go for a drink some time.

I didn't bother to reply.

HA! I felt kinda powerful not replying, even though techniqually I'm not doing anything. I deleted his messages and stuff and have no really thought much more of it.
I can't be botheredf for him to dredge up old shit and try and screw me over again. Wanker.

Anyway, that's all my news I think...I haven't been going out much cos I'm so skint (pah) and am trying to save up for xmas pressies.

Better

Tue, 22 Nov 2005 19:14:12 GMT

Things are looking up.
I've gone back to Clarks. It isn't too bad. Infact, even though today was boring. I can cope with it - because the people there make me laugh. And I don't feel that people are bitching in a snide way. My last day at the nursery went fine. Although they gave me a card that said "be careful who'se toes you tread on on the way up, cos your be kissing their ass on the way down" which made me think maybe it had a secret undertone to it... and Heidi didn't sign it, so she got her point across! She also said I had to come in and collect my P45 and cheque but she'd sent it this morning, so obvousily she can't stand the thought of me stepping foot inside her nursery again! Oh well, good riddance to them all!

In other (boring) news, I'm still a bit ill with a cold - it sucks. But in great woohoo news - I've quit smoking. It's been a week since my last cigeratte. I had a drag of one of Allan's roll ups but gave it back cos it tasted so nasty, but that's it.

I haven't been socialising much cos I've felt ill. I saw Rob and Al briefly at my brothers gig, but mainly I've just spent time with Matt. We spent the whole weekend together. Just chilling out and stuff. We went to see the new Harry Potter film and it was so ace it spurred me to read the 5th book so now I'm completely engrossed in it! Only 5 years too late, hehe.

Quit

Thu, 10 Nov 2005 18:44:34 GMT

Well, I quit from the nursery.
Today I told Heidi. I knew I'd made the right decision because I could tell by the way she reacted she doesn't want me there. And I don't want to be there, so that's fine by me. She kinda pressured me into working until the end of the month but I've wrote a resignation letter saying I'm going to be leaving beforehand. So I've only got next week and I'm outta the place.

I'm probably going back to Clarks. I spoke to Anna today on the phone and she was really nice. Although the place did my head in a bit at least I wasn't bullied and made to feel shit 24/7.